Ashhy went for his 6 months jab today. He's weighing at 9.8kg -.-''' Doctor says, his weight and height all above average babies. And he said that's a good thing. That is? I didn't know. Lol. Rushed back home from Kk. Need to do makeup for Yx's prom night.I did a good job. Hehe, well that's at least something i've confidence at. But anw, have fun Yx.

This week will be such a busy week, tmr cousin's wedding, fri Yl's wedding, and sat. J's birthday. I got to do make up and hair for Yl. Gotta spend money on presents for J. F. Where got people ask for presents right.

I'm quite ok now. Except the giddyness and nausea is still around. But because of the sick made me super lazy now a days, i only chat on msn, watch drama, facebook and youtube :) Other than that, handling that very very noisy Ashhy makes me super tired.

I hope you guys don't run away ok? Keep staying. I'll be updating whenever i can. Luv.

Ps: Will try to reply the tags soon. Patience!

UPDATED

I think i have some readers asking me why is Mel's blog private or something. And when is he going to update. I just done his new blog 2 days ago. And idk if he'll update. But i think he will try to if there's something to update. So here's his link :) Http://memoirs-ofmel.blogspot.com Luv.

Ashhy went for his 6 months jab today. He's weighing at 9.8kg -.-''' Doctor says, his weight and height all above average babies. And he said that's a good thing. That is? I didn't know. Lol. Rushed back home from Kk. Need to do makeup for Yx's prom night.I did a good job. Hehe, well that's something of what i'm at least max confidence at. But anw, have fun Yx.

This week will be such a busy week, tmr cousin's wedding, fri Yl's wedding, and sat. J's birthday. I got to do make up and hair for Yl. Gotta spend money on presents for J. F. Where got people ask for presents right.

I'm quite ok now. Except the giddyness and nausea is still around. But because of the sick made me super lazy now a days, i only chat on msn, watch drama, facebook and youtube :) Other than that, handling that very very noisy Ashhy makes me super tired.

I hope you guys don't run away ok? Keep staying. I'll be updating whenever i can. Luv.

My bestest.

Super classic.

I've been feeling weaker and weaker each day. I need to nap. I've no strength to open a bottle. I've no strength to walk. Why why why! Pus, Ashhy has been getting so hyper out of the sudden. Thank god. I've survive through one day of his nonsense. My house is like having earthquake for the whole day yesterday! Damn. Mavis came over in the night, and i got time to relax awhile.. Good. But end up. Things happened again. F, i don't wanna say about this anymore.

I've alr uploaded Ashhy's video.. But please not today? I'm too weak and nausea to do anything.

I'm still not ok yet. Elin has been rushing me to update like for days. After this weekends. I'm really so weak and tired everyday. I sleep early each day. I used to sleep at 3 or 4am in the past. I go to bed everyday like after Ash sleep. Maybe 11 or 12 plus? But i still don't feel enough. More antibiotics please.

Watched Jennifer's body yesterday night online. Aw, Megan fox is like so hoooooot! Overall nice. You might want to watch it too (:

Be back soon.

You guys cannot imagine how the hell am i feeling right now. I've been in silence when i'm staying at both places. Both yishun and eunos. Don't think i'm that 'Happy' at yishun. I hate it w my mom at home. Whatever fuck i do is wrong. I don't go out w J means i go find other guys. I go meet up w my friends to chill for awhile means i'm still not suitable to me a mom. I don't call up to inform when i go out means i'm being a not good girl. I go out for 3 hours means i haven't change since last 2 years. I don't speak to her about my problems means i'm childish and selfish!

But know what. When J was still treating me like a piece of shit. She told me not to bother w him. And said even he try to change also last for few days. And now he came back asking for the last chance. She immediately believe him when he only tried changing for a few days?! Ok, nvm about this.

I don't go out w J. She say husband and wife must STICK together?! Wtf. We're not even officially husband and wife. And i was like, why do we have to STICK together?! I thought even husband and wife have their own personal time w friends?! WA. SUPER GLUE AH. SEE EACH OTHER FUCKING FACE EVERYDAY NOT BORED? HE NOT BORED I ALSO BORED LA. (That was what he told me last time. I'm only copying his line.) NOT GOING OUT W HIM MEANING I CHEAP AH. SHE SAY I CHEAP GO HONG GUYS BECAUSE MY FRIENDS ASK WHETHER WANTS TO GO LAN COS WE HAVE NO WHERE TO GO. GO LAN = HONG GUYS AH. WAAAA. STEP CUTE AH.

And i went out to meet up w Yf and co to chill at starbucks for only like 2 hours. She says i'm not suitable to be a mom because i throw my child to that child's DAD. Ah, yeah. So daddy doesn't needs to takecare of baby and Mommy needs. Fair? HAHAHAHAHAHA. I've been taking care this baby for freaking 5 months myself. THAT GOOOOOOOOOOD DADDY ONLY SEES HIS OWN CHILD ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK. SOMETIMES 2 WEEKS ALSO NEVER EVEN SEE. HE DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH HE HAS GROWN. YA FUCK. LIKE THAT I'M NOT SUITABLE TO BE A FUCKING MOTHER. RIGHT.

COOL AH. And when i cry to my mom about our problems in the past. She say I DESERVE IT. Because this is what i choosed. And tell me don't throw all my troubles to her. Because it's all my problems! And now, so i keep everything to myself. She say i'm still underage. So my problems = to her problem. WTF? Hey, i told her i know what am i doing and i've alr speak to J about it. So why there's a need to say about this. SHE SAID I'M FUCKING CHILDISH BECAUSE I DON'T SHARE MY PROBLEMS W HER. AND HELL! IT WAS HER WHO ASK ME NOT TO THROW ALL MY TROUBLES W HER YOU KNOW!

YA RIGHT. NOW IN HER MIND I'M ALWAYS CHILDISH, UNFILIAL, AND USELESS. THINK ALL SHE WANTS. I GOT USED OF ALL THOSE STUPID WORDS SHE USED ON ME. CHASING ME BACK EUNOS. ETC ETC. I GOT ALL USED TO IT! EVEN WHEN MY BROTHER WROTE LETTER BACK HE ASKED ME NOT TO BE SO CHILDISH TOO. YAYA. FUCK. I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN I RECEIVE THAT LETTER. AND YET THAT WORD SPOILED MY WHOLE MOOD.

YA, I'M SO CHILDISH. I'M SO STUPID, I'M DUMB. I'M STUPID, I'M DUMB. ANYTHING YOU LIKE. YOU'RE UNREASONABLE TOO.

Tingting - Really?! Why didn't you say hi?!

passerby - Thanks :)

Guest - Yeah, all the while i takecare of myself. Sometimes when my mom is off, i get to sleep like 1 or 2 hours more.

pat - Okok! Will link you up when i sort out my links to this site ok? Luv.

Lek Yuan - Shhhh. Don't kp ah.

Renee - Chat w me on msn lor. I give you my new number.

Fen - I know, cuter than you can alr.

Yihui - I feed him w milk lor! Cereal, puree. Arbo your meat meh. Lol!

Carely - He really is fat what Hahaha!

Priscilla - Siao ah. I also not going back there stay forever. Weekdays i at yishun ma.

rae(passerby) - Just do whatever yihui says :)

Yihui - I don't see a broken family can do any harm to a child. Although there might be some. It might have maybe a little affect. Idk. But i'm from one too. I don't see there's any effect but they say it effected me. Lol. I'm willing to give him the last chance now even though i don't love him anymore. So actually i'm alr thinking of ashhy. Hahaha!

Kathie - Haha. I think you got it all wrong. I alr don't love him anymore. So actually i don't mind breaking up. But anw, i've alr gave him the last and only chance since he asked for it. So let's see how it goes. It's useless to keep say about this. How're you and Rx?

:) - Seriously? I don't think i've been stronger. But since you said so. Thanks alot for your support!

Pearlin - Thanks mei! Luvluv!

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Serious menstrual cramps right now. It's non-stop. And when i have those cramps my back hurts like mad too. Thanks to myself. I'm so regret i didn't be good and do my confinement well. Ohwell, it's just fate. Iet's just be it. Am still wondering should i rest at home or meet up with Yl and Yf. I don't even have the strength to walk around the house now. Argh.

Mavis came over to find me today. Flu came back to me again, cough got worst. I didn't even recover since i was sick last month! Aw f. I'm only getting weaker as each day pass. Now i feel dizzy, feel so weak, headache, serious coughing, sorethroat and flu. I just can't stop sneezing and coughing! But anw. I still went out to meet up w Yf. Headed to np. Walked around. Then went to mac, slacked. See doctor and home.

Paid 58 bucks. Got 7 kinds of medicine. And a bad consultation from that damn doctor. I've to go back again if i don't recover 3 days later. Great. I'm getting weaker and weaker. He say i shouldn't smoke since my gastric is alr not good. Plus i'm having sorethroat. Hell, if i don't smoke. My flu will get worst right. I feel so umcomfortable w my nose when i stop smoking!

Who cares, just dump those pills into my mouth, drink a cup of water, and see if i get well. I need medicine to make my body stronger so i have that energy to takecare that little pig of mine. I've not been sleeping well since i keep coughing. And my coughing always got worst in the night. It's non-stop ok! Argh. So i have to cough in the kitchen in case i wake Ashhy up, so untill i cough finish then i can enter the room. Headache right.

I still haven't transfer Ashhy's video into my lappy, i got not much energy to do that. I still have alot more stuffs for me to do. But i'd love to reply those sweet tags. But not now. Tmr ok? Luv!

Marriage? After this 3 years relationship, my hope was all drained. It was never a happy one. That last 10 months, millions of apologies coming out from your mouth, millions of bashes, millions of hurting words.. Tell me how to forget? I've alr let go. This might be the last and only chance. I'm still trying to love someone like you. But it's kinda impossible after so much of disappointments. Moreover, we can't communicate. Well, let's see how this go. It's the last one. Please cherish after so long. Although i feel like puking when i see you.

I'm at Eunos, don't ask me why. I know why am i excatly here because i'm still giving a one last chance to that son of a bitch. But anw, these few days has been fine. Except for sometimes we can't really communicate and after i found out what was i actually doing. I'm alr screaming at the top of my voice. Having him around really really doesn't give peace to my life.

Seriously, i don't mind being a housewife when i'm only 17. Staying at home every single day. Doing the same things over and over again. But please, i need shopping. But the only thing i need to have me being like this is only a good husband and a good father to my son. If he can't. Why should i waste my youth on him right? I rather do a mom's job well, and then just carry on my 17 life.

I can't stand hypocrites.

Be back soon, with Ashhy's video. I forgotten to bring my cam usb over!